Cancer survivor is “empowered” by peacock feather tattoo on her reconstructed right breast removed after disease detected in her milk ducts

A cancer survivor feels “proud and empowered” after having her first ever tattoo showing a fan of peacock feathers inked across her reconstructed right breast which was removed after the disease was found in her milk ducts.

While BBC Studios editorial compliance specialist Karen Myers, 49, was hugely grateful to surgeons for removing her cancer and saving her life, seeing her breasts and scars reminded her of a negative time, which she wanted to change.

Delighted with the results, Karen, of Finchley, north London, said: “For two years after surgery, I avoided mirrors.

“But, seeing the tattoo for the first time, I couldn’t believe how beautiful it was.

Unusually, it was being treated for a different health complication that led to Karen’s cancer diagnosis in July 2018.

She said: “I had been having loads of stomach problems and was seeing a gastro specialist for what turned out to be gallstones.

Karen was not overly concerned as in 1992, aged 20, she had a non-cancerous, benign lump identified and assumed it had recurred.

But a mammogram and ultrasound revealed worrying signs around her right breast.

She said: “The results came back and doctors said I had invasive ductal carcinoma (IDC) and high-grade  ductal carcinoma in situ (DCIS) which meant I had cancerous cells in the lining of the ducts of the breast tissue.”

Karen added: “I had stupidly gone to the appointment on my own assuming everything was okay. I heard the words, ‘You have cancer’ and just went numb.

“I remember sitting there with the surgeon drawing a diagram on a bit of paper, showing what he was going to do in terms of the surgery and my brain just couldn’t process it.”

She said: “I was working at Channel 4 on a maternity cover job that was just a year’s contract, so I could go to New York.

“I was desperate to experience a new kind of city life and enjoy the shows and culture that New York has.

Less than three weeks after her diagnosis, in August 2018, Karen had her first lumpectomy to try and remove the cancerous tissue from her breast.

But post-surgery, further scans revealed there was more tissue to be removed and Karen had a second lumpectomy.

She said: “After the second operation, they said they still didn’t have clear margins and there was more DCIS in the breast tissue.”

Karen added: “Basically, the next best option was a mastectomy.

“All my life, I’d lived with my breasts and not thought about them much and then, being told I was going to lose one, it felt like I was losing a part of me and I was confronted with the idea of looking different.”

Overwhelmed by the operation and still coming to terms with the whirlwind four months she had been through, Karen struggled to adjust.

She said: “I remember on day three in hospital after the operation crying and thinking I had made the worst decision, because I was in pain and couldn’t stand up properly because of my stomach.

Karen found herself avoiding having to look at her new reconstructed breast, which she saw as a reminder of the challenging period she had gone through – despite her gratitude to the surgeons.

She said: “I only ever saw my breast when they changed the dressings for the first couple of weeks.

Learning to adapt to her new body through lockdown, Karen began to think about the idea of having a mastectomy tattoo.

She said: “I’ve never had a tattoo before because I never thought it was very me.

She added: “I wanted to do something that I would feel happy to look at.

“I didn’t like looking at my scars or breasts in the mirror – not because scars are ugly – but because they represented a negative experience in my life.”

So, with kintsugi as her inspiration, she started researching and planning her mastectomy tattoo, before booking it in for March, this year.

She said: “The idea of kintsugi is that you are mending things that have been broken with a bold repair, so you can see the pain and the breaks rather than hiding them.

“It’s about celebrating the fragility of life and showing that sometimes when something breaks, it makes you stronger.

Seeing the tattoo for the first time, Karen felt overwhelmed with joy and emotion.

She said: “When I saw it, I couldn’t believe how beautiful it was. It was so much more beautiful than I thought it ever could be. I feel so proud and empowered by it.

As well as hoping that her experience will help other women going through and recovering from cancer treatment, Karen helps run the DIEP Reconstruction UK forum on Facebook.

She said: “It’s a case of just reaching back and helping somebody else up the hill that you just climbed and being able to encourage somebody who’s having a difficult time.”

She said: “I feel more confident than I used to both physically and spiritually.

“My tattoo is now part of my appeal. It’s  something different.

“It’s beautiful, sexy and feminine.”

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