Dear Fiona: Will I ever be happy?

The problem…

“I’ve been unhappy for so long, that I think I’ve forgotten how to be happy. I have a serious lung condition that means I need to do physiotherapy on myself every day. I’ve been pretty much isolated for the past two years because of it too, as I’m told contracting Covid would be really serious for me.

“Because of all the medication I’m on, I’m fat, I’m unattractive, and I find it hard to mix and talk with people. I’ve tried dieting – in fact I’m always on a diet, but this makes me miserable too.

“I have a part-time job working from home, but the pay is rubbish – because I take so long in the mornings, I can’t get a full-time job so this one is all I can find. That means I can’t afford to do any of the things that might cheer me up. Although I’ve tried to find other jobs, once they find out how limited I am because of my condition, these never get further than the interview.

Fiona says…

“Your self-esteem has hit rock bottom and it’s clear you are very depressed. Like many people, the pandemic has taken a huge toll on your mental as well as your physical health, and as long as it continues to dominate our lives, it is going to be hard for people to feel upbeat.

“You can start to change your mindset though. You can stop seeing yourself as fat, unattractive and boring! Ok, your relationship with your boyfriend didn’t work out, but the fact you were together must mean he saw something in you – so others might too. Meeting potential partners whilst this the pandemic is going on might be difficult though, so perhaps for the moment you could concentrate on meeting people virtually?

“Social media has lots of groups for all kinds of purposes and places. You could find one that’s local to you – and you might feel safe enough to meet people outside for a coffee, perhaps. You might have one for people with the same lung condition as you – and you could arrange virtual meet-ups using one of the various phone apps. You might even find a support group that helps you to manage your diet, if you feel you need to do that.

“Even small changes to the way you relate to people can have a positive impact on your life. Yes, I know it’s hard – changing the way you think and feel is never easy, but it can be done. Just take small steps, one at a time, and you will get there. When the weather improves you could perhaps go out for a short walk each day – just getting some sunshine could help your mood. You’ve already taken the first step by acknowledging your problems and writing to me – now take the next step.”

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